It's a boy!!

Picture credit here

Tee hee hee. Since I've none nieces or nephews to fuss over, to spoil rotten; it's a pleasure to know that one of my traveling sisters of the yaya-hood is pregnant with a baby boy!! Another 4.5 months to go. Excited mengalahkan parents!! tee hee hee.

Congrats again babe!! I'm sure both you and feisal will be great parents. Mr dearie said person very much envy and idolize u guys. I do too. *hugs*!!

Quick Update

Just a quickie. Click here to see pictures from Aja's wedding.

Fad, Ayu, Far and Nadira; awesome road trip company. =)

Hola!!

Gosh.it seems eons ago that i wrote in this dusty blog. A friend said yesterday, my blog keeps her work stress level down. How is that possible puzzles me. Hehe.

Nothing much that needs telling in the blog. Something would occur and I would take a mental note to relay it in the blog but by the time i reach home or sits in front of the computer, either I became to lazy to update or the mental note vanishes. =)

Hence people, this is a nonsensical rambling rambling of yours truly to kill time and to help my friend's stress-level management.*waves to miera!!*

Current addiction: anything vintage, anything poofy, shoes, bags. =)

Congratulations to soon to be newly weds, Aja and Ira. Soon I'd be able to recruit a battalion of flower boys and girls for my not-that-soon-wedding. And that is if Allah permits. Insya Allah. =)

There, my blog is updated. Told you there's nothing new bout me. hiks.

Bleak Bleak Monday

I had an inner gut feeling that today would be bleak.

Monday blues at its worst.

Im sleepy. Im moody.

I want my mommyyy...

Dead

In relation to this, yup, I am dead. Not adviced accordingly they say. Blow to the ego and to my intellect.

For the first time after started working here, I feel sooo very stupid.

Seriously.

I officially loathe and hate myself.

The End

updated:

Boss became the Heroine. Lucky she understood my situation. It's behind me now. Learned a lesson. New mantra: ALWAYS be one step ahead those who sits and waits for you to stumble.

Intriguing

How one categorized 'good muslim' is beyond my comprehension.

But I do know this, for one to openly declare that it is okay to do what Allah clearly prohibits in the Al-Quran clearly puts one on a different footing than what a Muslim should be.

I am always intrigued to know how some are courageous to do the mentioned above.

Wallahualam

happy

So yesterday I told mr.dearie said person that we will only have dinner and NOT go into any shops. But since we finished early, it was MY idea to do window shopping when lo and behold lies the exact type of black clutch I was having in mind. The right size. The right colour. NOT the right price. So, I went back sulking.

But today, she made me happy. I'll be getting this baby soon: -

the shoes!!the shoes!!

yay!!im a happy clam.=)

*the mantra chanting need not work now as I bought something which I haven't already have. the shoe design!! u doofus. not shoes. shoes, i got plenty. hihi*

Suicidal mission left me suicidal

You know how the boss like to send me to war field without having any ammo? I always like to call it suicidal mission. However, today's suicidal mission was not my boss' fault.

So, I went to war field, guard-less, arm-less, and I died!! Like literally died!! For I really didn't know the subject matter. *malu sey*

This is more like a self-disappointment post for I hate going to any mission unprepared. I at least would like to be equipped with some ammo so as not to embarrass my self. But today I failed. And I made myself look bad.

Though I know I should not be hard on myself (as the matter was NEVER handled by me. and I was called for THE 9.30 meeting at 9.25. like heck 5 minutes of preparation? DID NOT HELP!!) but I hate the idea of making our fort look bad. I hate the bad-impression that the enemy gave.

Ish. Someone take me to the Ferragamo sale (to cuci mata). I need window-retail-therapy.

I want to be as happy as her. shucks.

OMG!!

Like seriously, I'm such a dick(not literally)-head. If i did some damage sumwhere, i am truly truly sorry. If I didn't, I'm glad.

Now, I can be the gossip subject. "U know her, the insensitive dungu."

I rectified one in-sensitivity yesterday. I don't think I can do damage control for this one should the damage HAD BEEN done (don't know grammatically if that sentence is correct).

*Dear God, hear my prayers*

Updates

Update 1
Im broke. I chant this mantra every month so as to prevent me from damaging my already burnt pocket. "i don't need to buy anything that I already have". But that mantra has obviously failed me. I am indeed disappointed. *tsk* *tsk*

Update 2
Work is killing me (not literally). But seriously, the brain has limits!! *i know.i know.be thankful.stop whining*

Update 3
mr. dearie said person rawcks!! *hehe.tetiber*

okay, back to work.

*peace*

Real

There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's whyyy I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Ohhh
Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shinin in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You make it real for me
-James Morrison, You Make It Real

I first got hooked by the melody of the song. Then, the lyrics caught me heart.

There are few 'you's' who make it real for me. Me mum, mr dearie said person and my lovely ladies (myn,mira,ein and muna)

They keep me grounded. They have the faith and confidence in me that I don't have in myself. For that, *LOVE*

p/s: mr.dearie said person, apologies for the jealousy stint I pulled yesterday. You make it real for me. =) *hugs*

Taken off guard

I was just informed by the boss that someone made some (unkind) comments on our unit's legal opinion. But she refused to reveal whose opinion in specific (revealed:not one of hers). She also refused to reveal at which period of time the legal opinion was written.

I immediately froze. I was taken off guard. Could be one of my legal opinions.

The unkind comment made, indirectly questioned the intellectual capability and professional integrity of the one who wrote it.

I personally take offence of such comment. Maybe it's the ego.

But seriously, if one asks dumb question, one deserve dumb answer (the scenario that our unit have to encounter on a regular basis). Right?

*Note: I actually re-read all my legal opinions and nothing quite fit the description of THE legal opinion my boss was talking about. Maybe it's NOT me. Maybe IT IS.

Oh well, -ve or +ve the answer is, I'm greatly affected by such comment.

Bleak working day it will be.

Carpe diem

It took you a while to get where you are.
Now your journey begins.

Carpe diem, mr dearie said person.

*hugs*

Be careful what you wish for

You know how I've been whining that I need to feel occupied at work. How I whine I wanted some excitement in my working field.

And my wishes came true.

Note: And i'm not jumping with joy.

AARrrggHHHH!!

So kanak-kanak, seriouslyl; be careful what you wish for. It might just come true. *sigh*

Simply Perfect

Can't help falling in love - Elvis Presley

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you
For I cant help falling in love with you

Her dream wedding came true. I concur with her best friend that it was simply PERFECT!!

*more pictures here & here

chipmunk

She (the person on the left) calls me "her chipmunk" for reasons evidenced in the picture above. hey, i do look like a chipmunk. a cute one that is albeit i don't have chipmunk voice. hiks.

she who calls me "her chipmunk" is getting solemnized this coming saturday. I as "her chipmunk" can't wait for the event to be unfold. I as "her chipmunk" is excited. I as "her chipmunk" is super duper happy for she who calls me "her chipmunk".

To she who calls me "her chipmunk", your chipmunk loves you very much. For the drama you have to go through (don't we all have dramas in life), you deserve nothing less than only good things in life. And i'll be praying just that for you. =)

xOxO,

Your (cute) chipmunk

worst best friend

Just the other day I was watching MTV airing some countdown on most voted favourite scene from The Hill. One of it was the "worst best friend" scene. It was the conniving-back-stabbing-best-friend's-crush-stealer sort of worst best friend.

And yesterday, after a whole week of not checking e-mail. That "worst best friend" scene started to replay in me small scattered brain. Why? Because there it was, the typical friendster reminder reminding that my best friend's birthday was 1st October 2008. Yesterday was 7th October 2008. A week delay of wishing her happy birthday!!!!!!!!!Unforgivable. Hence, I was the forgetting-best-friend's-birthday "worst best friend" sort. *sigh*

No big deal you say? It is a BIG DEAL when in 2007, she went all out sending me bouquet of flower and a pearl bracelet to my office on my Birthday. 2007 was indeed one of my favourite Birthday memory of all time. And what did I do for her in 2007? Nothing. In 2008? Nothing. That worst best friend scene in the Hill? Nothing. I, hands down should be voted as being the worst best friend ever!!!

*double sigh*

And she's getting married soon. In less than 3 weeks time. Haven't got much time to redeem myself ey? I suck.

To me dearie dearie Miera. Appreciate the call yesterday as it is a sign that I still have that place somewhere in your darling heart. I apologize for being a moron. You deserve better.

As promised, I am at your service whenever needed. We'll meet up soon okies. *Hugs*

Eid Mubarak

And so it's Monday, am still in the Office while i'm quite sure everyone is back at their own crib preparing for the coming eid this wednesday.

So here I am,

Menyusun jari sepuluh
Memohon maaf sekiranya
Terkasar bahasa
Terguris hati

I am but a humble servant of God who is forever flawed.

Have a good Eid Mubarak. Drive safe.

=)

Guilty Pleasure

I'm guilty of spending A LOT on bags and shoes and my recent acquisition is this lovely lovely bag

which has dual function
oohh..i luff..luff it. Been looking high and low for huge hobo like such and my search has officially ended. Credits to this lovely chicka for having such great taste in fashion. and she's pweety too. girl, u rock!!!

Hihihi. Now, I'm a happy birdie (though work has not been that kind on me.*yucks*).

Only 8 more days till we bid farewell to ramadhan. 8 more days to benefit from this holly month. 8 more days to clean or body, spirit and soul from seen and unseen harm. I love this year's ramadhan. Simply because I get to breakfast with the family every other day. Simply because I get to perform tarawikh every other night with the family. I've been blessed. =)

my sister says i like fashion

I'm only doing this tag because numero uno, the sister mentions her little sister in her facebook note. like wow. being acknowledge by the sister is an honour. seriously. and numero two, because its true, i do like fashion. though i suck at it.heh.

*Job?
sometimes involve cleaning up super hard headed incompetent bunch (not all i might add)

*Best sartorial advice from your parents?
note:had to google what sartorial means. big word ooo.
hurmmm.it's either too many to recal or nada.

*Style icons
marissa cooper of the o.c (wardrobe)

*Describe your personal style
mix n match of everything. burst of colors. gold shoe, blue bag, purple top works just fine for me.

*I build my daily look around...
anything simple

*Personal Style quirk
funky looking baju kurungs

*Favorite designers
i don't know

*Most cherished item
1. me big blue self-bought Coach bag
2. all of me shoes *me need more shoes!!
3. me funky cotton kurungs

*I feel best wearing?
obviously clothings that makes me look slimmer.also anything that makes me stand out from the crowd.

*The first thing I look at in another Sartorialist’s outfit...
bags and shoes. it's nothing peculiar when in the middle of a conversation, i suddenly quip "hey, she's got nice shoes/bags"

*I always break this fashion rule...
clash of colors

*I never break this fashion rule...
don't flaunt it if u ain't have it

*Never caught wearing?
bikini tops <--- i second my sister

*Most underrated item in menswear/womenswear?
don't know la. i think now everything is overrated from the undies to the head scarves.

*Dress to impress who?
me, myself and i

*Shine your own shoes?
na ah. don't have any which needs shining. =)

*Favorite stores?
shoes (charles & keith, Aldo, Nine West, Zara, Mod, etc)
clothings (Dorothy Perkins, Zara, Forever 21, online blogs, Top Shop, Naf Naf, MNG, innai batik etc)
*note: favorite stores does not mean i own something from the abovementioned stores

*Your next "must have" purchase?
a verrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyy long list of new shoes, new bag, new tops etc etc etc.

*I only buy __________ in Europe.
i guess bags cause its cheaper there than here or so i was told.

*I skimp when buying …
sometimes tops, sometimes shoes. depends on how deep is the hole in the pocket.

*I splurge on…..
bags and shoes

*Favorite item of clothing
anything i have that is funky and vintage lookin

*Guilty pleasure
when i bought my first Coach bag. =)

*Perfume, Skincare
not a fussy pot on perfumes. myself, my sisters and mum shares perfume. hence, we wear whatever's available on the public vanity table. =)
nutrogena for cleanser and oil of olay for moisturizer

*Most stylish city (Milan, Paris, London, New York, other)
all the above city

*When I was high school I wore?
whatever that was kononnya 'in' back then

*Sports?
badminton, futsal

*Favorite fashion magazine?
used to be seventeen, then cleo. now nada as i truly feel it's an aweful waste of money and paper.

*Favorite vacation spot?
island with crystal clear water

*Favorite neighborhood restaurant?
Ayob's at the foodcourt next to Atria. <---- i second my sister

I am tagging:

Anyone who feels like doing it. =)

THE job

I'm half way done with THE job. Hence the itchiness of the finger to blog.heh.

Had iftar with the Best Friend (doubt he thinks me as one anymore since I go mia so often that he got tired of being always the one to call and check up on yours truly) and his girl friend. As cliche' as this may sound, it is true that one should treasure those they cherish for once one lose them, they're gone forever. I guess things will never be the same with the Best Friend. I stopped running to him to whine bout work and every other tiny details of dissatisfaction since forever. And he stopped confiding stuffs to me ever since a cold war engulfed between us (for reasons I cannot recall). We stopped having therapy sessions over a cuppa of anything at anywhere for at least 6 months. And seeing him yesterday all happy wappy lovey dovey with his girl friend affirms that I'd no longer able to have all that with him. Not because he has a girl friend. But I guess because he changed. I changed. We changed. Hence, to the best friend, I hold no grudges against u and I hope its the same for u. I'd only hold grudge against u if u DO NOT INVITE ME TO YOUR WEDDING IN 2010. cheers buddy. =)

A fellow blogger commented "cute girl you" in one of my cam-whoring-session-post and that made me realized that I do not dress my age. Compliment? may be. could be. I guess am a bit disturbed. If only she knows I'm 25. She'd probably go, "she for real?". And what if she knows what I do for work. She'd probably go, "get out!!she's that?" . heheh. fun ain't it trying to figure what others think of me.

Now, u believe that I'm a self-conscious-phobic?

p/s: to the fellow blogger, this post meant no harm. i know u meant well. *chehwah.perasan sendiri orang kate cute* =)

What boredom

I take back my words. I foresee bleak timeout for me during weekends to come. At least until the Raya holiday. tsk.

The task thrust-ed upon me is super tedious and it requires me to be very meticulous and patient.

*sigh*

Looking on the bright side, though tedious and meticulous I am required to be, it's an experience worth gained.

Till don't know when will be the next post, toodles and ramadan mubarak y'all.

p/s: though both my hands are tied, kindly do not exclude me from any gathering aights? i'd sacrifice my sleeping time (in order to finish THE job) just to catch up with u peeps =)

Fashion post

I'm no fashion expert. I wear as I please. I love bright colors. And my current obsession? Anything vintage-ey and ol skool. I'm all crazy for checkered print shirts and puffy-retro-looking blouses. The former I've yet to attain but the latter, I have a few though not that retro or vintage but it satisfies the puffy-ness requirement. Hence, wishing to score for more of such tops (wishing because I can't because I'm flat BROKE).

Came across this and I want it but it's sold so I can't have it!! arrgh. this is indeed stressful.

ignore the ramble ramble me. I'm in the state of what-ever-ness and ignoring office work like I own the office. heheh.

A+

I'm an A+. Not an A+ student (never was, never will). But have A+(read:positive, not plus) blood.

25 years of living and only now I'm bothered to know my blood group (and it was only because I had to fill in required information in some form.heh)

It's Friday. Whoopee. Life's been dull. Feels out of league. Feels out of reach from various people. I. need. to. make. my. self. happy. period.

Alhamdulillah

News received about a month ago. Many queried but I insist to not have high hopes pending the official letter of appointment. Today, it's confirmed. Alhamdulillah.

p/s: atie, sorry aku terover emo kat ko ari ahad ari tuh.hihih.cuak dowh!!

Thinking cap NOT ON!

Bunch of things to attend too but my mind just seem not to work. When I read, it goes blurry and my mind starts to wonder else where. Maybe because it's Friday and I'm already thinking bout the dinner dates with me buddies later at night. Or maybe I'm just plain LAZY. I would think the latter is more appropriate. Heh.

Hence this post.

Oh dear me thinking cap, where for ar thou thinking cap?

Gomen

So the house this morning was filled with people (not strangers) as my aunties and uncles were leaving for Umrah. I on the other hand was busy preparing to leave for work. So, while doing so, had a casual talk or two with the people in the house. And naturally the casual talk or two will revolve around work or love life. Hence the question, "so where u workin' now?". the answer, "at putrajaya". question followed, "where at?". answer, "with the AGC but attached to a Ministry". response, "oh.gomen ker?". answer, "yeah".

That response given by the people as if shouts "tak standard nye kerja dgn gomen" (this observation is solely based on my OWN presumption as I am known to over-analyze and as many know, I suffer for severe sickness of paranoia) . And such retort comes from someone who is attached with a Government Link Company. How fair of a statement is that?

p/s: in case ur wondering, gomen stands for government

Blank

I initially wanted to blog on the recent road trip to Pangkor Island with the fam but suddenly all thoughts on it evaporated into thin air. When you think things will be alright, it would somehow turn otherwise. When you think you are doing fine, it suddenly turned wrong. Life indeed is like a roller coaster. Nothing is fair. The grass will ALWAYS be greener on the other side. But be grateful I must for I am still breathing. For I have a job. For I have shelter. For I have family. For I am loved by my beloved ones. Syukr Alhamdulillah. Allah is FAIR.

The many faces of me during the recent trip. Decipher yourself.

Lunch

See, the reason why i got infuriated for not being informed of the postponed meeting was because I've pre-planned how the day was going to run. The plan was this; attend meeting, skip formal lunch, head to Alamanda to get lunch.

Now, no meeting. no formal lunch. no alamanda trip to get lunch.

Furthermore, I'm too lazy to drive out or even drag my butt to the cafe downstairs to get some food.

Hence, decided to stay in the office ravishing on junkies i stock in the office. And you wonder why I'm this bloated and fat?

Stupid postponed meeting!!!!

The cat and I

I initially wanted to post this first than the former but I was way too infuriated, I had to channel it out of the system.

Had an insomnia attack last night. Woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep thereafter. The cat (refering to the one-blue eyed kitten) was up too. Since I've yet to perform my 'isya, I took wudhu' and just did that. Thereafter, I recite the Quran to calm this unnerving feeling. And guess which ayat appeared? It was ayatul-kursi. He was listening. He knows. He guided. Subhanallah. Masyallah. He is indeed Great. It gave me the calmness I seek but I still couldn't sleep. Probably it's a reminder to constantly remember Him. To believe in Him. To know we are protected.

Alhamdulillah. I am truly blessed.

How does it feel

to have traveled all the way for a meeting only to know that it was postponed in the afternoon to which in no way my boss or I was informed. To make it worst, we're the only ones who were not informed. Stupidity is taken to the next level. I've never been this furious for the longest i can remember. It's no wonder certain negative perceptions are thrown to this public sector. Shame on you people!!!

updated:

Didn't know a phone call caused the office boy to come all the way down to explain why we're not informed. He also had the cheek to shift the blame to my LA to which I called my LA in and ask him to explain the situation. Clearly my LA was not wrong. All the while, they were wrong for not informing us. They were wrong for not sending us the letter to inform the meeting was postponed.

May seem petty and trivial but mind you, this has happened more than once. It's the second experience for me. Imagine the first, where I stayed back for a meeting thought to convene at 8 p.m only to find out it started at 6.30 p.m. My boss did the yelling at that time. This time around, I was the horrid one.

The rule is simple. If we're not wanted at the meeting, why invite right?

I guess my broo-ha-ha at this would only add on to the negative perception that they have already gathered towards me; arrogant, un-sociable, hot-tempered federal counsel. And you'd think I care? I only react when I am provoked. I can be patient but I have my limits. The true color of shuey is shown now ey?

Be afraid. Be VERY afraid. Muahahahah. *gelak ala drakula* *giggles*

Thankful

Those who have been reading since i started blogging (from the one in Friendster), would've noticed how I hated,despise a certain somebody from my previous employment experience. Since I left, things didn't change much. The somebody is the same 'ol annoying person. Paranoid psychopath I would like to think.

I just got the dish from my former colleagues that that somebody is getting worst by the day. I pity pupils,colleagues & staff all the same to have that somebody dictate the division as if that somebody owns the division. From what I gather from the little bird, things are in fact getting uglier by the day. Sending nasty e-mails, un-called behaviour, paranoia syndrome sums up the characteristics of that somebody.

I am ever so glad that Allah chartered my path to where I am now for I wouldn't want to experience the awfullness of what they are presently going through.

"absolute power corrupts". And THAT is soo true.

Thank You Allah.

family vacay & congratulations

Going for another island escapade very soon with the family.

Another weekend bliss. =)

To Mr Lee Chong Wei, Congratulations!! Regardless of what others think of you, I personally think you did the Nation proud. You lost with pride, honor & dignity intact. *clap* *clap*

*picture above courtesy of utusan malaysia

Tagged

Tagged by Hida

Question 1: What were you doing 5 years ago?
Answer: Law undergrad

Question 2: What are the 5 things on your to-do list today?
Answer:
a) Work
b) Meet up a friend for dinner
c) Prevent from suffering any boredom syndrome (since the boss is away and all)
d) Do some research (ala-ala rajin konon)
e) Cannot think of another reason

Question 3: What are the 5 snacks that you enjoy?
Answer:
a) Daim Cake
b) Chocolates
c) Any junk food
d) Can't think of anything else (never quite the habit to snack pun)
e) Refer to (d)

Question 4: What are the 5 things that you would do if you were a billionaire?
Answer:
a) Travel the world
b) Donate to charity
c) Get me mom her dream house
d) Get me mom her dream car
e) Save up for rainy days (never know when He would take it ALL away)

Question 5: What are the 5 jobs you've had?
Answer:
a) Pekerja Kontrak Sementara Immigration
b) Pupil in chambers
c) Advocate & Solicitor
d) FC

OK...finally the 5 lucky people that hopefully will continue this tag:

Not tagging anyone. Feel free to do it if anyone wishes to do so.

3 weddings, bbq dinner & surpise bday bash

All the above event left me stuffed, bloated and FAT!! ewwww..I so need to go on a diet now.

Wedding numero uno:

Shauna and shadiq (9.8.2008)


Wedding number 2:

Hazlina & Shamsul (10.8.2008)

Wedding tres':

Masliza & Haizul Azmi (10.8.2008)

Le food and attendees of bbq:

mashed potato ala DIY

The host and hostess

Le couple no. 2

FAT & bloated Yours truly *yuck!!*

Ze surprise birthday bash:

The accomplices

The cupcakes

The baloon

The dazed birthday girl

Me complete lovely chikas (caya lar aban!!)

Just felt like having a photo blogging post this time. Been away for two day course from Mon-Tue. Back to office today. Attended B-O-R-I-N-G meeting. Going back home in a bit. Toodles.

spotted

On the morning of 08.08.08 (friday), spotted at the Dewan Tunku Chancelor Universiti Malaya;

dude receiving the anticipated scroll

with a photo-gedik, self-claimed photographer of the day


xoxo,

The photo-gedik self-claimed photographer.=)

p/s: mr dearie said person, the path u took was not an easy one but u finished it non-the-less. im proud of ya. Now, a new journey begins. The world is yours to see and seize. carpe diem!! (seize the day). *hugs*

Twilight Zone-Like

For the past 3 days I've been experiencing hard pounding headache. The one that makes u feel like dis-attaching the head and hit it hard against the wall for it is way excruciating to bear. Then again, I may have exaggerated tiny bit but STILL it's painful. The catch is this, it comes on the journey to work and when I'm at work. It lessen when the office view starts to disappear from my sight. And the best part is, it vanishes when I reach home. Now, how do u explain that? probably there's tiny aliens in me head carrying the mission to purposely disrupt me concentration at work. or probably there's kryptonite-like stone in the area of Putrajaya which causes me this pain. and that would make me Superman's sister and that would mean I have to wear my inner garment inside out? ewwwwwwwwwwwww.... *tenenenenenenenen-twilight zone tune starts to play* . to note, I'm having one at the moment. It hurts!!!!

On a different take, I'm almost done with one piece of work and I'm off for an early weekend break. Oh yeah. Not going for any escapade anywhere. Just taking leave for the fun of it. Because I can and because there's allocation for it. ngeeee..

G'morning, G'day, G'nite.

Awwwwwwwww

It is a renown fact that Asian men are hopeless when it comes to being romantic and lovey dovey. Au contrair!! My everyday exercise of blog hopping brought me here and it made me go awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww all the way. hehe. read up and you'll know why.

psst...ehem ehem..mr dearie said person, take note yeah. =p

see guys (as in literally), it doesn't take much to make a girl happy. just add some mystery and unexpected surprises. we'll (us girls) be happy.

ehem..ehem..ehem...mr dearie said person *wink*

woooooooooossssssssshhhhhhhhhhhh

like wow. it's already wednesday?

and like wow. t'row would be the last day of work (for the week) for me since i'll be taking friday off. =p

time have been zoomin by me for the past two weeks or so. not because i have tons of work to do. not because i was busy. i don't know. it just zoomed by.

so, the cousin got married last weekend. the dad got all emotional and started the cliche' line of "sedih tengok anak orang lain kahwin". the sisters ignored 'em line as always.

life? has been alright. I read a friend's blog that reminded me of my depressed days. No, I'm not depressed. I suspect she is. Like her, though not depressed, I feel dis-attached with the going ons of this world, country or me friends. Been busy minding own business with me family, cats and that once-upon-a-time-turned-hulk-dude.

I'm bored. I need excitement (not-kinky-related y'all). Everythings been dull dum dim dum.

Help!!

More weddings come this weekend. Probably that'll put me back to my senses. Meeting friends and doing the hoo-haa-ing.

Till then, shuey OUT!

work

I think I've made myself clear that to date, I've yet to attain confidence in the advises I give. More often than not, I always feel my opinion differs from the Wise ones.

Was doin some case research on a matter and came across this particular case which bear similar subject matter and facts to an opinion I gave months back. And I'm so glad that my opinion actually saved some *sses from being sued for in that case, the applicant succeeded in obtaining certiorari simply because the authority failed to adhere to natural justice rule of audi alterem partem (right to be heard) of which I very much insisted in the opinion I gave. And that's what saved them from being in a hot a soup.

Hooray for shue. The advantage of having gone through chambering period and the-not-so-long-practicing experience gives a different hind sight on things. I tend to look things both ways and not unilaterally.

It may seem petty, but it gives me the assurance that I don't suck in what I do. heh. =)

hurt feet

For a person who considers being a shopping/fashion consultant (read: perasan sendiri) is her second profession, she failed to adhere to shopaholic rule 101: wear comfortable shoes!! instead, she wore heels to suit her-oh-so-glam-bag (read: perasan again). Little did she know that she would be checking out stores from one end of shopping mall to the other end of shopping mall just to find a men's blazer. Yes, u read that right. A MEN'S BLAZER!!

The aftermath: simple. feet aching till today. A HuGE blister on the back of me right foot. Resulting of which, can't wear heels for it bites on the blister part which is now naked and exposed. so much of looking glamorous. sheesh.

Oh yeah, fyi, the shopping consultant session was on last MONDAY. and today's WEDNESDAY. do the math yo.

*sigh*

p/s: mr. dearie said person. i don't blame you one bit. i was the stubborn one. so sue me.

Shhhh...

The boss and I are on a mission: pretending to be at a non-existent meeting.

why you may ask? there's a sumthing sumthing ceremony going on at the moment of which the boss and I thinks it is of no significance. It's typical of me not to show up at these functions, BUT my boss? wow, that's a first.

Believe it or not, we're seated quietly behind closed doors in the comfort of our own room minding our own business leaving an impression that a) we ARE at the ceremony or b) we're at a non-existent meeting. And the idea came from the Boss. Why go to the extend of pretending? simply because numerous (read: 3 times!!) announcements were made asking(begging) all workforce to attend the function held at the hall downstairs. Which indicates ONLY one thing, the hall is half empty. heh. so, pretend we must.

so, shhhhh...it'll be our little secret. =)

All is good

"Be with someone who loves you more than you love yourself"

I heard of the above quotation more than once. I've witnessed it. I'm experiencing it.

The past whirlwind of events made me realize that I've taken for granted on things that he does/willing to do for me. Yes, people I'm a self-certified QC (figure it out yourself). I get things to be done ONLY my way. It's my way or the high way (or so to speak).

But on that unfortunate Thursday, the Hulk in him emerged. All green and monster-ly liked *I'm not kidding*. The bottleneck pressure I caused on him exploded. Now, it's the other way round, it's HIS way or the highway. I was taken aback.

I thought it was dead over (which explains the sappy sorrow entries posted). But I couldn't let go. Not because I was desperate. Not because I was pathetic. But because I couldn't. I said 'stay'. He said 'why?'. I said, 'just because I don't want you to go'. *Note: And no, that was not the Tom Cruise 'you' complete me moment*. My request (he said it was begging.pfft) was turn down cold heartedly.

I pushed my luck and pestered him to stay. A home made 'sorry' card and a book gift did not even slightly stir his decision. I failed (or so I thought). When all fails, the secret weapon comes into play. I put on my best 'sappy sad' look and voila', for a moment I saw him smile (not the green wide smile. just a small hidden smile). good sign, yes.

But again, that was NOT the 'you complete me moment'. *sigh* to keep it short, ALL IS GOOD now.

I learnt that I made him cry on that unfortunate Thursday (just because he was very dissapointed in me. yes, I did a nasty thing/cumulative nasty things to turn him into that green monster. guilty as charged)
I learnt that I've underestimated his dreams and passion
I learnt that I AM the creator of that green monster in him. *tsk.tsk.I dissapoint myself*

From that,

I have to learn to respect
I have to learn to trust
I have to learn to believe
I have to learn to be patient

He may not be THE perfect guy for me. But I would like to think that he is THE guy for me.

For compromising, for understanding, for forgiving and forgetting, I salute you Mr. Dearie Said Person.

We have a long way to go. ;p

p/s: thanks to fellow friends who commented on my previous posts consoling me and telling me that everything will be okay. *hugs*

*Now all of you can go puking now. heheh..*

Reflection of how i feel

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your faceYou told me how proud you were, but I walked awayIf only I knew what I know todayOoh, oohI would hold you in my armsI would take the pain awayThank you for all you've doneForgive all your mistakesThere's nothing I wouldn't doTo hear your voice againSometimes I wanna call yaBut I know you won't be thereOhh I'm sorry for blaming youFor everything I just couldn't doAnd I've hurt myself by hurting youSome days I feel broke inside but I won't admitSometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I missAnd it's so hard to say goodbyeWhen it comes to this, oooh yeahWould you tell me I was wrong?Would you help me understand?Are you looking down upon me?Are you proud of who I am?There's nothing I wouldn't doTo have just one more chanceTo look into your eyesAnd see you looking backOhh I'm sorry for blaming youFor everything I just couldn't doAnd I've hurt myself, ohhIf I had just one more dayI would tell you how much that I've missed youSince you've been awayOoh, it's dangerousIt's so out of lineTo try and turn back timeI'm sorry for blaming youFor everything I just couldn't doAnd I've hurt myself by hurting you - christina aguilera 'hurt'

pathetic

Hey it's friday. Under normal circumstances I'd be jumping with joy but obviously since yesterday, nothing is any longer normal.

Hence, I'd be taking this lonely pathetic sole to any shopping complex after work to drown my sorrows on potential retail therapy. I know I know, no more over-budgeting BUT something NEEDS to be done to cure my broken heart.

I shall stop now for I sense teary eyes.

Yes, call me pathetic. I am. I am indeed a fool.

Now, leave me alone while I listen to pathetic love songs.

pfft..

Exhilirating

Back in the practicing days, I was the girl who would write down notes in meeting, the girl who would stay back till the wee hours of the morning to assist preparing bundle of documents for a case due next morning. I was even the girl who had to deliver those documents to court. In short, a not-so-well paid kuli cabuk.

Today, I exchanged words (disagreement) with a PARTNER of a rather renown firm of whom I only came to find out after the meeting. We exchanged cards. Like wow. Exhilarating. Never in a million years I think I would've able to do what I did just now.Hihihih..

This job is not so bad after all. Glad didn't make a fool of myself. Oh yeah.=)

*shuey in the mode of poyo-ness and jakunnes*

Absorbed

I've been too absorbed in the reality of life that I forgot to think or realize that I am not the only one thinking about it.

I've been selfish. I know.

Facing the consequences I must even if it means having that someone walk out of my life.

What is ideal anyway? What is permanent anyway?

I know that someone reads this blog.

I'm Sorry.

Indeed, I've been a fool.

Please don't go.

what friends?

Reading this proves to show that one's action or ommission towards another friend leaves an implied emotional effect on the other.

Sometimes we do/omit to do things unintentionally but that very action of ours gives an opening to negative reaction by the person feeling 'victimised' by such action.

I've personally experience many such encounters but many of the times i choose to brush it off for I hold to my mom's and late opah's word everytime such situation arises:

mom said "friends come and go BUT family stays"
late Opah said "biar orang buat kat kite, jgn kite buat kat orang" *read it in Perak slang*

Of course it's hard to swallow or digest when we feel we're forgotten/abandon by our friends. It makes us feel unworthy of the so called 'friendship' we build for many years.

And that is why it's best to keep any friendship at most minimal. So that one would not feel betrayed by another lack of compassion/action towards the other.

After encountering a lot of unnecessary emotional turmoil, the above chant is my current life mantra.

But then again, we are but a humble human being who are not flawlessly perfect. The imperfections make one a human being.

Hence, to dear you, please don't feel your abandoned by your friends. I believe I'm not only speaking on my behalf but I'm speaking on behalf of the rest of your university peers. We would love to come by and pay a visit.

Rage

Daily office journey (to Putrajaya):

leave house: 7.15-7.20 a.m
arrive office: 8.00 a.m

Today:

left house: 7.20 a.m
arrived office: 8.35 a.m

Dear Police Force,

Should you decide to set up road blocks on a working day, kindly give us, road users an early heads up!!!

xoxo,

Angry citizen

sheesh. and one would think the route to Putrajaya via LDP would not be jammed. Not when one is staying in Damansara Jaya!! I could not imagine those from Puchong heading towards KL for work today. One road block near East In caused massive jam all the way to Puchong. It's ridiculous i tell ya!!

*shuey wishing she's back home playing with a one eyed blue kitten named ten-ten.sigh*

B to the O to the R to the E to the D

I know I'm not suppose to complain. I know I should be thankful.

BUT I am simply getting bored at my job. I need excitement. I want to explore. I crave for adventure.

Instead, for the past two weeks or so; the office mood is dum dim dum.

I'm b.o.r.e.d!!!!

Kenit

Male.1 year plus.pair of blue+green eyes.

Found lifeless outside the very gate of my family's casa. Result of being hit by an unknown car.

Was sound asleep when my mom woke me. She just said 'Kenit..'. I went, 'why kenit? is he dead?' Mom said 'I don't know. Maybe. Klong's outside with him'. Braved myself to go outside and it was indeed a devastating sight. He was motionless. Lifeless. Dead.

To write this is hard enough. Memories of him living, running around carefree haunts me. He was special. He was loved. Caught my dad looking at his graveyard this morning; a sign he misses Kenit.

Soo many to share bout this tiny bundle of joy when he was still living and breathing but as I'm writing this, I can't stop crying. I miss him too much and it hurts.

To my dear sisters, the 'what if''s' would not bring him back. He was taken away for a reason. Letting go we must.

Kenit, you are sorely missed.

Impression

It never occured to me till today that I can't really relay whatever I want to relay in my blog for if I did, i would impress upon viewers of my blog that I'm ignorant of the current situation (i.e oil price hike, political instability etc)

Truth is, I am ignorant because I refuse to indulge myself in such news anymore. There can be two sides of any story. Boils down to one theory : conspiracy. My observation, conspiracy could also be two ways. Both ways can fight and bicker and it would never end. For whatever it's worth, it will go off for a while till it come back to haunt whoever next probably 10-20 years down the line. and THAT'S why I choose to be ignorant.

Coming back to my opening statement (chehwah!!poyo). It's true, whatever's expressed in one's blog gives an idea of who one is in person. Except in situation where one chooses to potray one's split/various personality for whatever reasons only they would know.

I'm starting to not make sense again. uh-huh.yup.

Let's just get straight to the point. Received a parcel yesterday and now I can scrap one of the item on this wishlist of presents as it came true yesterday. Yay!! Im happy.=)

Now, can you see the relevance of this post?

spender shu=happy shu=insensitive shu *tsk* *tsk*

my defence.bought it at a fraction of the retail price.saved up for it.

And yes, I'm not only official-function-phobic but I'm also a phobic when it comes to people being judgemental to my inner-conscience/character.

There, I've said it.

It's blue. It's big. I'm happy.

*Note to oneself: enough over budgetting exercise till the end of the year.sheesh.

back & tanned

Arrived home safely from the land of Redang on the evening of Monday with a very very tanned skin (icks) which then weirdly turned red yesterday. mr. dearie said person however convinced me that I didn't look bad with the very tanned skin and I took his words for he has forever been my no. 1 confidence booster.=)

Redang was alright. For some reasons (which I shall not disclose), I enjoyed last year Perhentian trip better though this time around we did more activities. Snorkelling is a must (obviously). We also did candat sotong but i failed miserably as no squid was attracted to my bait (shucks). We karaoke-ed. We played cards. They did Discovery Diving with the exception of yours truly and another friend for we can't swim and our water confidence is almost zilch. We laughed. We sotong-bbq-ed. We got very tanned. Pretty much sums up my 4 days 3 nights Redang extravagant.

Photos will follow suit later (as usual). hihi.

I've many things on my head to blog but can't seem to phrase anything properly. *sigh*

Will try to get thy thinking cap working soon.

*shuey bumming around the office. in no mood to work*

island-er

Influenced by my childhood buddy, yasmin, myself and a few others made a pact for island annual trip after a refreshing Perhentian trip last year. This year, our circle of island pact expanded to 10 island-er.

This years destination: will only be revealed upon our safe return (of course, with pictures attached).

Excited mode so ON!!

*feeling giddy* =)

Inconvinient Truth

The inconvinient truth about my parents: anything marriage related is a taboo.

It's almost forbidden to inform a friend (or even cousin) is getting married. Simply because none of their daughters (i.e. my sisters and I) are anywhere near getting married. Weird ain't it?

Don't get us (my sisters and I) wrong. Not that we don't want to marry. Circumstances warrants us not to, just yet.

Why I'm expressing this thoughts? Yesterday, I received a wedding invitation of a school mate whom I have not seen in years. It instantly made me feel that I'm running behind. Not pressured (in denial mode) but I feel sad that I could not achieve my parents' wish to see any of their daughters getting married anytime soon.

I wouldn't say I'm completely ready to settle down to have a husband to care for but the idea of getting married tinkles my heart to just have someone to share and care till death comes to take us away.

O' Dear Parents. Don't worry. If Allah permits, we will get married. *sigh* oh well, that will just have to wait when the time comes.

Annual trip

Thy boss just approved for a sun and beach fun scheduled next week =)


Ahhhhh...bliss

kuching update

How shall thee sum up the 4 days 3 nights Kuching escapade?

SUPERB!!!

Great host (the bride and her family)

Superb company (law 20 zany bunch)

Unforgettable experience

singgahsana lodge (reccomendable)

serikin market (fun but hot wheather!!)

Pottery (interestingly unique

cultural village (hot guy.=p)

Damai Beach (zany)

Due to the overwhelming amount of photographs and as it'll take me ages to post 'em up ere, i only select few as shown above. The rest of photographs taken via my camera can be viewed here, here, here and here. Have fun viewing!!=)