Friday 27 August 2010

Tell me. Tell me. How not to Fall in LOvE?

Credits to Ruffledblog.

with the dress. with the bridesmaids dresses. with the photographs. with the color combination. with the settings. 

Now, please don't get me wrong for being overly obsessed with how the americans/british roll on their wedding day instead of how the malaysian malays roll. Until today, I cannot get over the fact of how simple, close knitted and almost-everything-DIY one wedding can be. SERIOUSLY. Jawdropping AWE. Haih. 

The wedding plans is put on hold during the month of ramadan since EVERYONE seems to think that I am pressuring them. So, I'm taking a back seat for this month except for the kursus kahwin we'll be attending tomorrow.

I am also trying to do an inception to my subconscious mind that the reception or walimatulurus does not/would not matter if we're not prepared for the life after wedding. So I won't be annoyed over petty little things. So I would not be upset if things don't go my way. So it'll be a simple, serves its purpose of announcing to the public I AM MARRIED. But that inception would not be an easy task. I am but human. So help me Allah. 

Talking about life after wedding. How would you want yours to be like?

How I want mine to be like? Other than the whole compromise and respect aspect. I would like him to if possible imam every solat. I would like him to rebuke (just found out such word exist! thank you www.dbp.gov.my) me if I am not dressed properly. I would like him to pull my strings if I go astray.

Bak kata ustadz, "kita ni macam layang-layang, kalau tak ada siapa yang tarik, kita akan terus melayang tanpa tuju". Ustadz jugak cakap, "Umat akhir zaman ada dua penyakit, suka dunia takut mati". Guilty! 

Neither him or me is perfect. But I am convinced that he is my string puller. The one who keeps me grounded. The one who said, "kenapa nak membazir beli baju raya tiap-tiap tahun kalau yang ada masih elok lagi". Tersentuh hati ini. But I said, being sloppy is not a compromise. My mother always taught me to be presentable whenever and wherever so there is respect. *nak menang jugak. pelempang please*. Then he said, "what if one cannot afford?". *silence* Change topic. 

Yes, he may not be able to present me with lavish material things. But suffice to make me happy when he picks me up from home whenever we go out (he stays at kampung melayu subang). Suffice to make me happy when we take turns paying entertaiment bills. Suffice to make me happy that he knows the burden we have to shoulder once we're married. Most importantly suffice that he is a CAT LOVER too! Yay! ;)

Of course all are not rosey posey all the time. I have my melt down moments. But isn't love about learning to compromise and accepting the imperfections of each other. Of course it is.

So here's to 6 months plan of planning. Then, it's life after marriage.

Love you mr. caveman. I am a kite and you're indeed my string puller.   

Tuesday 17 August 2010

Random blah blah

Initially I wanted to tweet what I am about to write but upon seeing characters left -218, I thought why not blog about it. Hee.

I miss that *caveman of mine. Haih. My mom taught me to prioritize. Undeniably, my mom is always right. Family comes first above everything. And I'm alright with that. If he doesn't get that, he might not just be the one for you. Just a while ago I called him. He said, "nak bukak puasa sesama? hmmm. Tapi mesti your mom tak kasi." He said it without me prompting anything. :) He gets it that my mother prefers her daughters to have proper meals at home on weekdays. Once in a while it's alright. Especially on weekends. 

Simple thoughts like that makes me appreciate him more because he cares enough to understand. And I certainly do not rebel against the idea of having proper meals with family at home. It brings us closer together. Of course sometimes dramas in family occurs. But that's just how the family roll yo!

So yeah, though i miss that caveman of mine. Iftar with family with home cooked food hands down is the best! 

Insya Allah by next year, it'll be me, him and the family for iftar. =)

*the term caveman came about when I tried calling him but couldn't get thru and he explained he was at a job site which felt like he was in a cave. Hence, he is my caveman. Hee. Yes, we're no wait, I am corny and weird like that.

Friday 13 August 2010

Who says you can't be FAT (PHAT) and Fabulous!

I found this blog and my jaw dropped. How awesome to see plus size girls parading fashionable pieces confidently. Salute! You're my inspiration. Look at 'em girls go!


But that doesn't mean I am comfortable in my size now. I feel fat and sluggish. Not healthy. I know. I need my exercise mojo jojo. BADLY! Haih.

Wednesday 11 August 2010

*screams* comel!!!!

 credits here

comel tak comel tak? cards.i'm.in.love. 

I am also lucky enough that minus the conventional customary traditional ceremony, mother is agreeable with simple without mumbo jumbo frilly cards. Definitely a referral prototype!

Monday 9 August 2010

Venue el bookie!

Mommy just text. 
The venue is booked.
It ain't no hotel.
It ain't no lavish hall.
Just a simple community hall.
Told ya my wedding will be a simple one.
Right back at ya who thought it would be huge and grand.
You ain't know how my parents are.
Simplicity is like their middle name or something.
But I as sure hell would make it a fun one!

 Picture credit
Let the craziness begin!! Ouh excited!

Thursday 5 August 2010

green purple yellow


Need I say more? Check it out here. *love*

smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile