tale of a FAT girl

I knew of a girl who've battled with weight issue through out her entire life. she blames it on her mommy who craved for fattening food whilst carrying her. she never had the privillege to adorn clothes her age for she was naturally too big and too wide to fit into them. she didn't quite care how she looked back then. she knew she was not in the same league of her gorgeous friends but thankful that she is, they (her friends) never did outcast her and so she didn't become socially retard like some did.

then she went thru adulthood stage where she started feeling conscious at the way she looked. she remembered feeling frustated for not being able to find clothings off the sales rack. it was more often than not, too tiny for her. however her grief came to an end when the likes of Marks & Spencer, Dorothy Perkins and Ms. Read came and conquered shopping malls in the Klang Valley. she started to feel complacent and happy.

then she started feeling envious of a friend who lost major weight and started to follow suit her friend. she ate less and started hitting the tread mill at home. she managed to lose some weight but nothing major.

then it happened. depression hit her hard. she loss both apetite to eat and shop. only then she loss MAJOR weight. she went down 4 sizes and almost 10 KG. depression made her feel numb. she didn't realize the amount of weight and fat loss until she was cured from her depression. then she was happy. she started buying clothes and jeans which she never thought she could fit in. one happy bird she was.

then working-hood came. she stopped working out. she binged endlessly. she spend most of her time sitting down in front of the computer activity-less. the verdict, she gained approximately 6 KG. she couldn't fit into most of her clothes. she stopped buying clothes. she felt ugly.

then yesterday came. her cousin's daughter validated what she's been feeling for the past 1 year or so. the 5 year old girl came and started jabbing at her portruding stomach whilst saying "gemuk,gemuk,gemuk". she was devastated. her ego hurt.

and thank you to the little girl, she chose to take on the challenge to lose weight and be healthy. and maybe just maybe, at the end of the year, i'll share with you peeps with the tale of a HEALTHY girl.

till then, toodles.

COMMUNITY ANNOUNCEMENT: it's not cool to go around saying people fat and "perut buncit" for people such as the FAT girl has feelings too.