Thinking cap NOT ON!

Bunch of things to attend too but my mind just seem not to work. When I read, it goes blurry and my mind starts to wonder else where. Maybe because it's Friday and I'm already thinking bout the dinner dates with me buddies later at night. Or maybe I'm just plain LAZY. I would think the latter is more appropriate. Heh.

Hence this post.

Oh dear me thinking cap, where for ar thou thinking cap?

Gomen

So the house this morning was filled with people (not strangers) as my aunties and uncles were leaving for Umrah. I on the other hand was busy preparing to leave for work. So, while doing so, had a casual talk or two with the people in the house. And naturally the casual talk or two will revolve around work or love life. Hence the question, "so where u workin' now?". the answer, "at putrajaya". question followed, "where at?". answer, "with the AGC but attached to a Ministry". response, "oh.gomen ker?". answer, "yeah".

That response given by the people as if shouts "tak standard nye kerja dgn gomen" (this observation is solely based on my OWN presumption as I am known to over-analyze and as many know, I suffer for severe sickness of paranoia) . And such retort comes from someone who is attached with a Government Link Company. How fair of a statement is that?

p/s: in case ur wondering, gomen stands for government

Blank

I initially wanted to blog on the recent road trip to Pangkor Island with the fam but suddenly all thoughts on it evaporated into thin air. When you think things will be alright, it would somehow turn otherwise. When you think you are doing fine, it suddenly turned wrong. Life indeed is like a roller coaster. Nothing is fair. The grass will ALWAYS be greener on the other side. But be grateful I must for I am still breathing. For I have a job. For I have shelter. For I have family. For I am loved by my beloved ones. Syukr Alhamdulillah. Allah is FAIR.

The many faces of me during the recent trip. Decipher yourself.

Lunch

See, the reason why i got infuriated for not being informed of the postponed meeting was because I've pre-planned how the day was going to run. The plan was this; attend meeting, skip formal lunch, head to Alamanda to get lunch.

Now, no meeting. no formal lunch. no alamanda trip to get lunch.

Furthermore, I'm too lazy to drive out or even drag my butt to the cafe downstairs to get some food.

Hence, decided to stay in the office ravishing on junkies i stock in the office. And you wonder why I'm this bloated and fat?

Stupid postponed meeting!!!!

The cat and I

I initially wanted to post this first than the former but I was way too infuriated, I had to channel it out of the system.

Had an insomnia attack last night. Woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep thereafter. The cat (refering to the one-blue eyed kitten) was up too. Since I've yet to perform my 'isya, I took wudhu' and just did that. Thereafter, I recite the Quran to calm this unnerving feeling. And guess which ayat appeared? It was ayatul-kursi. He was listening. He knows. He guided. Subhanallah. Masyallah. He is indeed Great. It gave me the calmness I seek but I still couldn't sleep. Probably it's a reminder to constantly remember Him. To believe in Him. To know we are protected.

Alhamdulillah. I am truly blessed.

How does it feel

to have traveled all the way for a meeting only to know that it was postponed in the afternoon to which in no way my boss or I was informed. To make it worst, we're the only ones who were not informed. Stupidity is taken to the next level. I've never been this furious for the longest i can remember. It's no wonder certain negative perceptions are thrown to this public sector. Shame on you people!!!

updated:

Didn't know a phone call caused the office boy to come all the way down to explain why we're not informed. He also had the cheek to shift the blame to my LA to which I called my LA in and ask him to explain the situation. Clearly my LA was not wrong. All the while, they were wrong for not informing us. They were wrong for not sending us the letter to inform the meeting was postponed.

May seem petty and trivial but mind you, this has happened more than once. It's the second experience for me. Imagine the first, where I stayed back for a meeting thought to convene at 8 p.m only to find out it started at 6.30 p.m. My boss did the yelling at that time. This time around, I was the horrid one.

The rule is simple. If we're not wanted at the meeting, why invite right?

I guess my broo-ha-ha at this would only add on to the negative perception that they have already gathered towards me; arrogant, un-sociable, hot-tempered federal counsel. And you'd think I care? I only react when I am provoked. I can be patient but I have my limits. The true color of shuey is shown now ey?

Be afraid. Be VERY afraid. Muahahahah. *gelak ala drakula* *giggles*

Thankful

Those who have been reading since i started blogging (from the one in Friendster), would've noticed how I hated,despise a certain somebody from my previous employment experience. Since I left, things didn't change much. The somebody is the same 'ol annoying person. Paranoid psychopath I would like to think.

I just got the dish from my former colleagues that that somebody is getting worst by the day. I pity pupils,colleagues & staff all the same to have that somebody dictate the division as if that somebody owns the division. From what I gather from the little bird, things are in fact getting uglier by the day. Sending nasty e-mails, un-called behaviour, paranoia syndrome sums up the characteristics of that somebody.

I am ever so glad that Allah chartered my path to where I am now for I wouldn't want to experience the awfullness of what they are presently going through.

"absolute power corrupts". And THAT is soo true.

Thank You Allah.