Rainy Monday Blues

I'm in dire need to lose weight. Oh please don't dismiss my plea. It's no fun to not being able to fit into any clothes I would like to wear. No, it does not necessary mean new clothes. I'm talking about the outfits readily accessible from my not-walk-in-closet. Yes, the shopaholic-shuey decided to take a back-seat from all the online-vintage-buying frenzy for the world-economic-slum is scaring the pants out of her. tsk-tsk.

Back to the issue. Yes. I admit I'm on a suka-hati diet. And the suka-hati diet consist of taking protein shakes. I try not to munch. But the office is freaking cold. The rain ain't helping. The tummy starts to rumble. Damage done to my suka-hati diet; besides the protein shakes, I consumed two quaker-chewy-chocolate-chunk-granola-bars (one in the morning and another one just a minute ago). Apakah? And I curse the weighing machine for not budging from my oh-so-scary-weight. tsk-tsk.

Bila nak kurus nih. tsk-tsk.

It's a rainy monday blues. tsk-tsk.

Kematian

Kematian demi kematian aku saksikan sejak kebelakangan ini. Bermula dengan ibu lily pada hari rabu lepas. Di ikuti dengan pakcik ku pada hari Jumaat lepas. Selang seminggu, aku dikejutkan dengan kematian sahabat ku semalam.

Aku mengerti ajal maut ditangan Tuhan. Aku tidak menafikannya.

Turutan kematian yang aku saksikan menginsafkan aku nyawa sesiapa pun boleh ditarik pada bila-bila masa. Setiap kematian yang aku nyatakan diatas berlaku tanpa disangka. Ibu Lily jatuh sakit secara tiba-tiba. Pakcik ku juga meninggal secara tiba-tiba. Sahabatku, Zul meninggal dunia secara mengejut apabila tiba-tiba rebah selepas bermain badminton.

Kematian-kematian tersebut juga menyedarkan aku untuk sentiasa bersyukur dan beringat bahawa nikmat kurnia yang dianugerahkan Allah boleh direntap pada bila-bila masa.

Masya Allah, begitu hebat kuasa Yang Maha Esa.

A reminder to myself and also to my loved ones. Wordly life is not everything. One day, we shall return to Him. Don't overwork. Don't be revengeful. Live life and be merry.

Tribute to a friend

I remembered the day I met him. He was a chambie like me. We served pupillage under the same firm. Then he left for AGC in the middle of his pupillage. We kept in contact non the less. We promised to do a reunion sort for catching up purposes. But we never did. From yesterday forth, the promise we made would be empty for eternity. He passed away yesterday. I was devastated. Though I only knew him for a short period of time, he was someone I could call a friend. Not mere acquaintance. A friend. I guess I never experienced death of a friend at such a young age. He was supposed to turn 27 this year in April. I am still devastated.

Ahmad Zulkamal, may your soul rest in peace and are placed amongst the dwellers of Jannah.

Al-fatihah.

Demotivated

I don't know why but i've lost motivation to work. I am not quite sure if boredom at work is an issue because at the moment, there are interesting new legal issues to explore on. Could it be the working environment? Could I have chosen the wrong working path? Sometimes it feels like I'm back at square one as where I was before about a year plus ago. Hmmmm..

Tired of thinking. Tired of being de-motivated. Tired of everything. If only being a housewife at this age is an option. Now, don't get me wrong. Being a housewife is as challenging as a professional but at least I'm focused at keeping the house clean and making the husband happy. My husband would be my colleague and the house would be my office. Cool kan?

If only. If only. Ish, rezeki Tuhan bagi. Harus bersyukur.Perlu bersyukur.

*sigh* Me and my whining. When will it ever end?

Sila ignore saya. Terima kasih.

Al-Fatihah

She passed away last night. Al-Fatihah.

Hijab

I stumbled upon an excellent video piece on hijab. I oh-so-love the way the host wears her hijab with ear rings dangling without exposing her ears. sangat tres' chic.

Click here to watch the video.

"Don't Leave Me"

That's what lily said before her mother went into the operation theater (OT).

Just got back from visiting both lily and her mom. Lily said, the doctor said, her mother is responding to the medication. Let's all continue praying for her mother's health and not to disappoint Lily's above wish. Insya Allah.

I'm not good with words but what I can say is, Lil's babe, be strong. We're all here for u.

*hugs*

p/s: those who wish to visit lily adelina hashim's mom can do so at Hospital Serdang's (not Selayang ye) ICU situated at level 4. Visiting hours 12.30 pm - 2 pm.

updated:

"My mum is getting weaker. shes due fr anor surgery nw. pls, I beg u to pray fr her" <---text from lily at 11.01 a.m

acquaintance, friends, strangers; let's all continue praying for lily's mother. thank u.