Is it June already?

O em gee. Less than 24 hours to the month of June. Approximately 1 month 2 days to the second step! That, I'm excited!

The month of May have been emotionally, physically and mentally challenging tiring. From feeling incompetent to feeling used. 

The month of May also saw my childhood friend getting married. Another one walked the aisle. Another 3 more to go. Many were surprised upon knowing that her closest friends were friends from school. Some went back to from she was 5 years old. Now, that's the power of friendship.

Looking forward to the coming months. I've not met mr. awesome for 3 weeks now. No, we're not the typical couple who sees each other every other day. Who text each other every other day. Who calls each other every other hour. More like seeing each other once a week. Text each other not more than 5 times a day. Calls each other not more than twice a day; best yet, sometimes no calls in a day. I guess that makes us an odd couple.

Totally NOT! That much space between us gives us the chance to miss each other. Gives us chance to fight less. Gives us chance to experience surprises after marriage. Also to definitely look forward to life after marriage. Awwness. Tee hee.

Looking forward to the month of June for the preparation bit. Looking forward to the month of July for Insya Allah we're just a step away from finally sealing the deal.

3 weeks after, u still owe me sushi! Let's do that today. Love much!

Wants v. Needs

Truly I am not in the mood to do anything relates to brain function. Really. Though there is this major assignment I have to finish in 9 days. 9 Days. WTH. Okay, I'm in denial and yes, this is a REMINDER.

So yeah, it's the wants vs. needs for the coming July Event. I'm flat broke. I've made bookings  (not made payments yet) for a videographer not yet for a photographer but I like the work of a  particular photographer who happens to be my sisters friend. Alas, combine the two, I'll be super flat broke like in the deficit. Hence, I am re-thinking about the videographer. But I just went to his fb and he posted a new video and I'm like damn he's good. Worth paying for. But do i really need one. Ish-ness.

Alaaaa. And I prefer to dwell on this over work. Boleh?

Or could anyone suggest me a good photographer with a reasonable price? I've got a photographer friend but I choose not to take him (unless I'm left with no option) as I want him to be my guest. 

Anyone?

Ye, note to self, draft yourself a budget and stick to it. Dodol!

Pink relates to bimbo post. I'm turning to a something zilla and that is a scary thought.

He's baaccckkk!

It's been a while since i last penned down my thoughts in the blog BUT not on twitter. Yes, I'm a twitter addict. It calms the anxiety and sharpens my nonsensical habit of thinking out loud in my head.

Well, things have not been to kind on me and him. Mother was our strongest supporter. When the good news was conveyed officially to me and to my parents, we went out for a cheap dinner (sorry!!. I am FLAT BROKE). At the cheap dinner, we teared for we couldn't believe how awesome my family and his family have been. Not once anyone was judgmental. Everyone was rooting for us and for us to believe in faith. I was guilty and sinned for questioning. I questioned a lot. I cried a lot. Dear Allah, I am so very sorry. 

Since then, he became himself again. He's back and I'm glad. I'm proud of you. I owe you an apology too for doubting your efforts. But all has paid off. He listens. He really does. I know you've never doubt that. I doubted. I know I'm wrong.

Lesson I learn through all this is only one, truly, He listens. Never give up. Have faith. Truly. Just have faith. And yeah, having supportive family helps too. I've got to run for a meeting now. Below is a shirt he bought for me. Too cute. Thanks, love. We're back on tracks. Yay!