And he said

"kita jumpa lepas habis kerja lah. syam rasa nervous".

In the beginning it was a cross of should i be offended or should i just laugh over his silliness?

After a nano second thought, i chose the latter. It tickled me that he didn't want to see me prior to the interview just because he's feeling nervous. Too cute.

Just don't pull the same stunt when the DAY comes ye.

*hugs and prayers from me*

inside joke: you can do iT!!! =)

Live like we're dying

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
we're hiding behind skin that's too tough
how come we don't say I love you enough
till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
we could make a feast from these crumbs
and we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
so if your life flashed before you
what would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
who would you call with your last goodbyes
should be so careful who we live out our lives
so when we long for absolution
there'll no one on the line

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying


We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh-- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live -- like we're dying

We never know a good thing till it's gone
you never see a crash until it's head on
all those people right when we're dead wrong
you never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start livin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh -- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying
live like we're dying
[Fade out]

OMG.LOVE IT!WANT IT!

Highlights: Nadiya+Jalil from Manggis on Vimeo.

Found the video here.Work of Manggis Production Sdn. Bhd.

Love the setting. Love the theme. Love the food selection. Dream wedding reception. Ehem. Minus the dancing bit. Nanti pengsan semua orang.

Pstt. Jom have that theme nak? MOMMY!!!

My mother so cute

Apabila saya memaklumkan kepadanya budak itu demam, dia berkata "tak pergi tengok dia ke?".

Apabila dia sungguh mengambil berat akan kebajikan budak itu dan bersungguh-sungguh dengan niat tulus ikhlas membantu budak itu dalam apa jua bentuk, termasuk berdoa dan bersembahyang hajat.

Aww. Adakah my mother so cute sampai saya patut jealous?

Budak itu; sila take note she already considers you just like her own son. Oleh itu, sekiranya saya membuli anda (yang dinafikan sekeras-kerasnya), you certainly have the liberty to give her a ring dan mengadu. Saya tidak marah. janji!

A day

full of collecting and absorbing interesting new facts about forensic accounting and the mechanics of motor vehicles. Oh yeah, and a revisit to Company Law. Refreshing.

Could it truly be a miracle? He is definitely hearing us out. Good luck to YOU!! You know mother and I would be praying for you. *hugs*

Sabar

For someone who had just lost someone dear to his heart and struggling to make ends meet telling me to be patient is deep.

I still have my family.
I still have a job.
I still have him.

I have every reason to be thankful for. So true. Thank you for the gentle reminder.

16 days till year end. I have faith in you. *hugs*

Ego Booster

It's an undisputed fact that everyone has ego and pride. To be judged and criticized professionally is a nightmare. But to have a professional concurring to another professional views/opinion is a good ego booster.

Though "puan, you are right" came from a circle out of the public service, it did my ego good. At least for today.heh.

week-end-ish

Saturday- Huberdina Maria Hertogh (Natrah)

After so long not satisfying my thirst for theater, i was a tad disappointed. The musical part was unnecessary. I could only appreciate the monologue bit. Sofea Jane was impeccable. Umie Aida was unexpectedly superb. For a first theater timer, Maya Karin was not bad. The rest of the actors and actresses was mediocre. I may be biased but Huberdina Maria Hertogh (Natrah) ala AIKOL kicked *ss hands down!!

Sunday- Brunch with favorite girl friends.

The last I met them bestie was about a month ago. Since a month ago, many things happened. Thanks for sacrificing your sunday family time to chill with us single ladies and a man. =) Unfortunate the brunch was not captured. But many more Sunday/Weekend brunch should not be a problem forthwith ey? Good luck fellow besties. I heart all of YOU!

Tomorrow's Monday. Damn!

p/s: To you, you've grown unimaginably matured. I heart you too!

Random thoughts (before i head home)

Soalan berbangkit pada hari ini:

• "Garangnya shu", pegawai itu berkata. Soalan saya balik, garang kah saya? seolah tidak percaya. honestly.
• "Tengah bahagia ya?" seorang lagi pegawai itu berkata. Saya menjawab, "ye, saya tahu saya sudah gemuk. jangan tanya soalan itu".

Cheh. Baru nak perasan ada orang tegur dah kurus (konon). But obviously to concur that I've gone down is going against everything that is obvious. like duh.

Hanya seorang sahaja ada delusional syndrome; YOU! kan dah cakap I've gained weight dan saya bulat seperti bola. Denying it would not push me to do something about it. Jadi, sila lah mengaku yang saya sudah membesar bagai juara. *sigh*

Another reason not to plan right?

brain numb

A whole day session of absorbing policy+ legal issues literally left me brain numb. The last time I had brain numb was in uni years after final exams. refreshing right?

While some of you starts partying tomorrow till Sunday, I won't. While some of you heads to Kedah for Toni's reception, I won't due to logistic and substantial financial issues. If you get my drift.

Anyways, to work I'll be at tomorrow. Friends attending Toni's reception, send me regards to her.

To you, we shall not give up hope. You being more optimistic about it keeps me spirit high. Let's do this.*hugs*

p/s: if things ain't changing, we'll go to plan B i.e. get that DSLR, attend photography class and let ME be your subject. alritey? =)

I wish I know where the land is

When I said,

Take me to the land of no worries
Take me to where I won't feel stupid
Take me to where I feel I belong
Take me to where I feel calm
Take me to where I'll be happy

He said,

I wish I know where the land is.

Thank you. How not to lose hope. How not to stop planning. There is still hope. There is still time.

Insya Allah.

A little optimist litigator bird

An optimist bird dropped by the office last night and we (well they) worked till late night and said, "don't ask the whys. look forward and find solutions". simple with a mind blowing message.

then he had to just spoil it and said, "your husband orang mane?" wth!!

apply advice: don't ask why he asked. find solution. cari husband?

have a weekend blast peeps!!

Confused

I remembered when I started working I was a cautious person. I rarely ask questions for fear that I would look stupid.

After a couple of years, I was told informally that it is not wrong to ask questions and raise issues.

But today, I asked questions. I raised issues. Impression I got, non-issue and invalid question.

Hence, confused.

"speak now or forever hold your peace" they say. pfft.

Still wrong. Still ridiculed. Still judged.

Again, confused.

Mom said I'm being too hard on myself. How not too?

It's been a month

since the should've been event. since then, i stopped planning. I am not the slightest angry at the reason that caused it to be postponed.

I just can't help but feel left behind.

But I'm not losing hope. Mother say I shouldn't. He said I shouldn't.

One month. 30 days. well technically, till new year. Miracles do happen, no?

back to reading some boring report on something depressingly related to work.

fat bump

As I looked in the mirror, I said to myself "orang lain ada baby bump. aku ada fat bump.tsk tsk."

Can the silence not be for ONLY a day. Can it be for at least a week? *sigh* silence was indeed golden while it last.

Shoo away all pesky noise. Shoo I say!!