Tuesday, 10 November 2009

I can never be good enough

for myself, for others.

work wise. personally.

and He has never failed to grant my wishes.

how i whine i missed the buzz of Pusat Bandar Damansara, He sent me to MOH.

how i wish my work is scrutinized and criticized so i know my flaws, He sent me here.

but instead of being forever grateful, i feel like a complete failure.

How great is HE. indeed He is great and really, i should be grateful.

let me mourn over my stupidity for a while and get back to work.

4 comments:

Caffeine Addict said...

it's not that you are not good!
cuma belum find the right rythm je kot???
I know... I know... HE is very attentive, right?
One moment we whine over something, he direct us to another place.
I just recently realized and will always believe there is a reason behind every single thing in my life.
There must be a reason why you are where u are now.
Maybe HE send you there to brings out the best in you.
I know it is difficult, all the responsibility you have to shoulder, all the hardwork, all the challenges, but isn't all of that shape your personality? how you manage problems at work, how you deal with people and etc.
right?
Just believe that you are there for a good reason, there is a reason why HE send you there... and strive for the best!!!!! ^_^

shueyluweyduwey said...

ayu: aaahh..someone who understands my kias. must've gotten bored reading the same thing over and over again kan ayu kan? kekadang rasa nak give up sebab malu nak tunjuk muka. tapi fikir fikir balik aku nak lari ke mana. gi tempat lain lagi banyak challenges. ye ye.saya sedang berusaha melakukan terbaik tapi seperti yang aku cakap, terbaik yang aku rasa is never good enough. i just feel that all eyes are on me. aku susah hati.tidur pun susah.duk fikir orang judge aku camane. aku tau fikiran aku legitimate because i know i do the same to the *T* officers here. aku pun judge kerja mereka.telitinya aku kepada mereka. teliti lagi orang lain kat atas aku.stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

farhati said...

shuey, it took me 3 years to finally understand my work. itu pun tak semua yg fhm.

skarang ni towards nak memahami dan menyukai. fall in love langsung tidak lagi.

your time will come. don't worry.

shueyluweyduwey said...

ati:kawan kawan yang memahami.ati lagi tak tahan nak dengar aku nye whines.tetiap hari (almost) mengadu kat dia.hempuk je aku lain kali.ahahha.