Its that time of the year ALREADY

Last time I check, I was still that much younger. Must I be that much older that fast. I'm not saying getting old is a bad thing. Getting old makes one wiser. What I want is for the time to go slow on me. It's already April. Didn't 2010 JUST got by.

Prolly the age is getting to me. But I ain't feelin happy. It's nothing really. But the emotions getting the bad side of me. 

Now where is that cute blue shoes to cheer me up. Like hello, the 7 days UP!! I want my shoes!!

Never

I've never drafted redrafted drafted redrafted an opinion this tedious and long.

Akibat sakit otak, telah melakukan research sendiri.

Alasan nak reward diri sendiri. Untuk apa, sendiri tak tahu.

Saw this,

Berangan sekejap. Memang tidak mampu. Tsk Tsk.

Kemudian beralih kepada ini. Ini mungkin. Nak balik awal la hari ini.

Legally correct but not favoured

If only everyone is professional. One or many may dislike whoever "goes by the book" BUT at the same time everyone is screaming Integrity.

Reality bites they say. It does indeed.

Kadang-kadang kita lupa akan benda ghaib. Kadang-kadang kita lupa lepas di dunia tidak bermakna lepas di Akhirat.

And I'm not taking any chances. As it is, I'm sinned for many things. Things which are realized and things which are not realized.

I am doing the right thing. I just need to believe it.

First time

There's always a first time for everything, people say.

Yesterday was my first APN. like whoah.

Yesterday was the first dinner date at the house with him and the mother. cute.

Yesterday was the first critic from him for speaking loudly in my own house. weird.

Yesterday was the first official discussion over the july event. another one struck off the list.

In short, am wayyy too overwhelmed with too many first time experiences. 

Imagine beginning tomorrow, many more first time experiences, work wise that is. Yikes!

Wish could take a day off or many days off. Wish I could plan than work. I wish!

And it's beginning to feel annoying when people ask and when I answer, the response begins with "why so long?", "why don't u do this, why don't u have that". 

Urm.A lil' bit confuse here. I assume one asks to acquire information but not to give unnecessary comments. I'll do it my way. You do it your way.

I am so thankful that my mother is uber cool and uber understanding.Without her encouragement, we would've not gone this far. Without her magical words, I would've not be this strong. Without her love, I would've stopped smiling eons ago. 

Mother's love is unconditional. Mother's love is phenomenal. Her love extends to him. And I don't mind.